I survived Harry Pottery day (and it was pure hell), the busiest day at UPS. It’s been pure hell ever since my sexual harassment situation (He was fired for multiple sexual harassment charges and forgery but then got his job back a few weeks ago). I’ve switched supervisors 3 times, had problems with management, been cited several times, and worked so much overtime that I basically live at UPS. A lot of things are gonna change in the upcoming weeks but I already put my bid in for a shift change so I’ll escape most of the bullshit. My supervisor from Dallas has only been in OKC for a couple of months and already she’s been demoted because she made the biggest mistake possible… she fucked up on “Harry Potter Day” so now she’s been sent to the “Tower”. We have no idea what the Tower is but if you never want to move up in the company, that’s exactly where they send you.

My boss, my protector, put in his 2 weeks notice today. He’s the only reason why our operation runs half way decent but without my boss, the supervisors can do whatever they want without recourse. Since I’m switching shifts, I have few connections to help me if I get into trouble again so I have to keep my nose clean. I’ve already worked with the 5-9pm shift and they all seem aight so I shouldn’t get into much trouble but ya never know with me. I already have a problem with the security guard and I’m most likely to beat his ass. Other than that, I’m good.

Since all of this drama is going on, I’m supposed to be checking on new jobs and certifications but there’s a lot of fear in me that I can’t override just yet. I’d have to go back to school which is the last thing on this planet that I wanna put myself through again even if it is only for a semester. Gotta do what I gotta do, I suppose. But its not like its the only thing I’m dealing with.

For the most part I’ve isolated myself again and think that I’m better off this way. I’ve been screwed over so much in 2007 enough to last me for a couple of years. I just think that I’m not cut out for friendships and I’ve given up on the notion that I need to keep improving socially or that I need to keep searching for different ways to find people that want to be my friend. I’m less anxious not caring, plus I have other things to worry about.

My parents have been going at it like cats and dogs for weeks, I’m by myself 95% of the time (5% comes from the time I’m at work) so I rarely get touched, Rollerderby is still causing issues, my job is sucking more and more each day, and I go days without sleeping (I just went all of last week with no more than 2 hrs sleep – this is the worst sleep has ever been). I get wild headaches, lift boxes at work until my body is completely exhausted, haven’t had sex in a year, I can’t drink alcohol because of meds and I quit smoking. I am getting absolutely nothing out of life. And shits gonna hit the fan when I enroll back in school. Please, shoot me.

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