I wanna disappear among sound and color
Resonate in the glow of a dimly lit morning
overlooking echos of rain on each blade of grass
I wanna hide behind moments of happiness
Dwell in the past cuz I can’t see my future
I wish to not exist
Live without ever being reborn
See the world with a new perception
I wanna die a thousand times
So I can value life
Live so I can understand death
I wanna be a mystery to everyone but me
Selfishly have me to myself
And escape through an interior no one shall ever see
I wanna be unrestricted
I want my happiness to be someone else’s
My life should reflect who I am
I feel guilty for what it’s not
And I disappear behind that guilt
Finding purpose within it that faith never could teach me
My strength is the fact that I can take pain
And be satisfied with it
Fallacy is a word that describes me