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Naughty or Nice?
|Image Is Everything||
What makes somebody fashionably in or out? Is it fashionably in to have a lot of friends, drive the right car, or have a certain image? Why have i found loopholes? Throughout my life, I’ve had these questions. They didn’t make or break me but it’s an interesting thought.
I’m a floater..always have been. The type of person to say fuck it to any situation in which I have to give a good effort. In school, it wouldn’t have made a whole lot of difference if i was never there..well..until Jr year in high school. I ditched constantly (if i was there), walked outta classes, neva really talked, and thought I had no friends. But I made no effort and I think I have a habit of remember negative things before the positive.
I had friends..I know a lot of ppl but I don’t have a lot of close friends. Shit, I only have 1 right now..same nigga thas been wit me for the last 5 yrs. And I love that dude for that…thas why I call him my baby brother. I skated right through school..hell, right through life and sometimes I think I had it either harder than it should have been or too easy. (more on that another day)
I have my own style..I doubt it’s fashionable but it’s mine. I have a different type of attitude from my friends…kinda weird but everybody keeps tellin me I’m koo and interesting. (That quiet chick that u might have to watch..still koo though) I don’t fit tha usual stereotypes too often..and I’m glad I don’t. I try not to be stereotypical.
And all this leads me to wonder what makes a person become the kind of person they are? Experience?..Temperament?..How others view u?..More importantly..how u view urself?
Experience…I haven’t had much..I pretty much keep to myself. I live vicariously through my friends and learn from their mistakes. I don’t venture out enough to make a whole of my own mistakes but I learn from them too.
Temperament…it’s probably slow to warm up.
How others view u? …A lot of ppl give me due props. They tell me I’m smart, I can go places, it’s ok to be me, I can do whateva I set my mind to.
How I view myself? I believe I got a lil book smarts, a lil street smarts, a lot of common sense, Imma be me (don’t know any other way), and I CAN do whateva I set my mind to. I just lack motivation half tha time. (workin on that) I often lose sight of what I’ve accomplished, what I’m capable of, and which direction I’m tryin to go. That’s when my negativity comes into play. (workin on that too)
So what kind of person does that make me? 1 unique individual? I dunno but I’ll figure out one day what makes a person who they are and it might help me understand myself better.
“We don’t need more money, we don’t need greater success or fame, we don’t need the perfect body or even the perfect mate. Right now, at this very moment, we have a mind, which is all the basic equipment we need to achieve complete happiness.”
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